A means to an end?

So, I've been thinking a lot about relationships lately, and my past ones and new ones or prospects or whatsoever. I have this incessant need to keep in contact with an ex. Not any ex, just one. Their is a part of me that thinks its just because I haven't really moved on, and found someone that I actually care about, and have them care equally about me and actually be in a committed relationship. But then there's the hopeless romantic in me that says maybe it's because we're meant to be and we have this pull to each other.

See I always watch the chick flicks and always believe that true love can withstand everyone and everything thrown in it's path. Now mind you, these are scripts that are written for girls just like me, and made to give these girls hope that all men will realize what they lost and just come running back or fly across the country to prove their love, but ya, that doesn't happen in real life.

Now, I would love to say its the first reason, on why I can't get him out of my head, and why I feel drawn to him, but part of me can't say that. I know I've had options, and opportunities to meet new people, to try things out, and date. I have met some decent guys, and I've met some jerks. But throughout them all he's still there. Even if we don't talk, he's there in my head. We've been broken up for 2 years, and he's still the one I vision life with. But it's not like I'm the only one who's drawn, he is too. We both have this need to talk and communicate with each other, and have this pull to each other. So I'm almost tempted to say it is the second reason, but whatever happens will happen. If its meant to be it will be.

Here's the other issue in the mix- he's half way across the country. So for us to even try to make it work, one of us has to move. I would, in a second. But if it were only that simple. UGH. Why do relationships have to be so complicated? I know the smart thing to do is simply cut ties with him and just see what happens, but for me that doesn't seem like a logical conclusion. Who knows, I guess I'll just have to see what happens, and hope that one day he wakes up and decides to take a plane to wherever I am and become my happily ever after. LOL. Right, and then I wake up.