So it's the beginning of the year, and its the time when everyone makes resolutions. I don't. I have never been a fan of resolutions, because it's almost like making a promise to yourself you know you're going to break. If you need a new year to make a resolution, it shows you have no motivation to make your own goals. Yes a new year gives it a perfect time to start over, but really, it's just an excuse for people to make goals because everyone else is making them. I have goals that I would like to accomplish, and I have deadlines, but I hate calling them resolutions. That's just me :)
So besides the new year, there's nothing really new going on. I hate saying goodbye to people, especially people I get close to. Now mind you, it's not like its goodbye forever, but its still a goodbye. Especially when you saw the person like 3 times a week, talked daily, and was always your go to person for anything :( It's like losing a part of you. At first it didn't feel like anything was different, and then I went to call them and they were across the country unable to go to dinner. It's just about getting used to it. Any who... that's not even scratching the surface on how much it sucks, but it'll get better :/
SO new year, new me? Probably not a much different me than last year. I'm definitely a more skeptical person when it comes to men. I don't trust them as much as I should, and I don't trust them nearly enough to have a relationship with them. Even the close guy friends that I could see myself with I can't even trust them enough to not hurt me. I know I'm at the place where I can commit and settle down with someone, but I just don't know if I could trust them to not hurt me. So we'll see how this new year treats me. I'm not expecting a grand year, and I don't necessarily hate last year, I moved on a lot from what I needed to last year, and I grew a lot as a person. This year will be a good one as well, but no new me. I like the old me just as much as I would like any new me :)
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